Ang daming bawal sa mundo, sinasakal nila tayo...
SEX
Ang sex hinihintay hintay na mga kalalakihan noong sila'y namulat sa hubad na katotohanan.
Nakaupo lang ako sa jeep. Nakakahilo ang biyahe. Ang bilis ng pasada ng jeep. Mga tuyo na samapguita nakasabait, sumasayaw sa bilis ng jeep. Pinagpapawisan na ako. Tumingin ako sa mga pasahero. Mga nagtatrabaho sa opisina, mga kasambahay na inutusan bumili sa Farmer's, at kung sino-sino pa ang aking nakita, mga ordinaryong tao pero ang nakaagaw pansin sa akin ang isang pamilya. Kandong kandong ng ina ang kanyang anak habang ang tatay nilalaro ang anak. Tinitigan ko ang anak, magkahawig kami dahil malaki ang ulo niya kasi tanda ko noon walang magkasyang t-shirt sa akin dahil di makapasok ang ulo ko. Ikinupira ko ang itsura ng anak sa kanyang magulang. Mukhang di sila magkakahawig. Genetics at hereditary ang pumasok sa ulo ko. Napangiti ako, at napaisip sa buhay.
Pamilya. Buhay. Babae. Lalake. Relihiyon. Jeep. Love. Sex. Lust. Siya. Ikaw.
DRUGS
Sumasakit ang ulo ko pagkatapos namin mag ikot sa Lipa. Humingi ako ng biogesic sa office ng mga GK fulltimers. Kumikirot ang ulo, para bang mahuhulog ang aking kaliwang mata sa sakit. Gagana pa ng gamot after 15 minutes ang bulong ko sa sarili. Hinimas ko isang parte ng kamay ko malapit thumb. Sakit ang naramdaman ngunit sabay nawawala ang mga batok sa aking ulo. Hilot at drugs. Happy Sauna at Shabu. Special service at wata. Drugs.
Distorted images of colors and shapes...
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Bawal....
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Hiwaga at Pangako
Hiwaga at Pangako
Huwag kang matakot. Andito lang ako para ikaw ay gabayan sa kadiliman na pumupukaw sa iyo. Akina ang iyong kamay at kumapit ng mahigpit. Huwag kang bibitaw aking mahal malalampasan natin ang paghihinakit sa walang karunungan.
Huwag kang matakot. Kasabay mo ako sa agos na ito. Matututo tayo sa hampas ng panahon. Di tayo malulunod sa iyak at sigaw ng nabigo. Aahon tayo.
Huwag kang matakot. Wala ng sasaya pa sa ilaw na iyong inaangkin. Wala ng tatalo sa iyong pagmamahal na sana ay walang katapusan. Sana ay nadadama mo ang kasayahan at pagnanais na makasama ka hanggang katapusan ng mundo.
Huwag kang matakot dahil walang katapusan ang buhay natin.
Huwag kang matakot. Andito lang ako para ikaw ay gabayan sa kadiliman na pumupukaw sa iyo. Akina ang iyong kamay at kumapit ng mahigpit. Huwag kang bibitaw aking mahal malalampasan natin ang paghihinakit sa walang karunungan.
Huwag kang matakot. Kasabay mo ako sa agos na ito. Matututo tayo sa hampas ng panahon. Di tayo malulunod sa iyak at sigaw ng nabigo. Aahon tayo.
Huwag kang matakot. Wala ng sasaya pa sa ilaw na iyong inaangkin. Wala ng tatalo sa iyong pagmamahal na sana ay walang katapusan. Sana ay nadadama mo ang kasayahan at pagnanais na makasama ka hanggang katapusan ng mundo.
Huwag kang matakot dahil walang katapusan ang buhay natin.
Sunday, August 20, 2006
ayoko ko na
Pa-Cool and his Coleman.
Ang ingay ko sa classroom!
Eh di cool ka na?
Pumitik ako ng candy sa office ni Alma!
Eh di cool ka na?
Brown-out!
Eh di cool ka na?
Binastos ko yung isang teacher!
GROW-UP!!! Seniors na tayo!!!! Wala ng cool cool!!!
A message to all F*cking miserable misunderstood seniors out there who are just floating deadwood bumping to each other making useless noise in the campus!!!!
Ang ingay ko sa classroom!
Eh di cool ka na?
Pumitik ako ng candy sa office ni Alma!
Eh di cool ka na?
Brown-out!
Eh di cool ka na?
Binastos ko yung isang teacher!
Eh di cool ka na?
Sa bagay...pwede na...cool nga...sa pananaw ng gradeschool!!!GROW-UP!!! Seniors na tayo!!!! Wala ng cool cool!!!
A message to all F*cking miserable misunderstood seniors out there who are just floating deadwood bumping to each other making useless noise in the campus!!!!
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Hindi Maitindihan
Tamis!!!
Macapuno or cocojam?
I can't decide.
The next day I was planning to stop by on Farmers to buy a flower but I would be late, so I went to school instead.
Dismissal time. I passed by the COOP/Linggo ng Wika tables, I saw a chocolate candy rose. I borrowed P10 from niki then bought a chocolate candy rose.
Macapuno to cocojam, finally on a candy rose...Sweetness, it may satisfy hunger and tintilate taste buds yet it's short-lived.
The candy rose I bought is not to satisfy but to cheer up and make a big fish happy...
Oh yeah! That GK haka and that face!!!
Macapuno or cocojam?
I can't decide.
The next day I was planning to stop by on Farmers to buy a flower but I would be late, so I went to school instead.
Dismissal time. I passed by the COOP/Linggo ng Wika tables, I saw a chocolate candy rose. I borrowed P10 from niki then bought a chocolate candy rose.
Macapuno to cocojam, finally on a candy rose...Sweetness, it may satisfy hunger and tintilate taste buds yet it's short-lived.
The candy rose I bought is not to satisfy but to cheer up and make a big fish happy...
Oh yeah! That GK haka and that face!!!
Blind Item!
Under the coconut trees, strolling down the muddy path, the gloomy sky above them hinting rain, I saw them talking.... laughing... Friendship!
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Living life to the fullest
"It's a movement...." - Pdo of Gawad Kalinga
22 representatives from LSGH went to Batangas to experience Gawad Kalinga. They experienced more than Gawad Kalinga; they experienced a glitter of hope for our nation.
Gawad Kalinga is no socio reach-out thing, nor an organization, and definitely not your sunday community services. It is a movement....
Magda drive ako hanggang Batangas......
Sana'y makita kita muli....
Huling ligaya sa mundong ibabaw...
Bastos ang tadhana...
Monday, August 07, 2006
Change
Change
Change defines a person. It is a journey of introspecting in the depths of spirituality; recognizing weaknesses; removing the fear of rejection; taking off the mask that hides the scars left by the past. If a person sees his true self from within and utilizes them to change then we can see an authentic self, which is a definition of a person.
It was Search-In, a psycho-spiritual weekend retreat offered to third year high school students, that helped me change and define myself as a person. This was no ordinary retreat because there was a time during the retreat it became mystical, mixed with love and suffering that I just cannot explain. I realized my weaknesses and strengths through this process, analyzed them so I can improve on and strengthen myself. This was a significant process in my life because it opened my eyes to a more intensified experience and deeper appreciation of the Christian faith. It served as the point of no return, I have experienced it and I must live it to the fullest. Thus I decided to change for the better knowing it is a process that will take a long time. In the ups and downs of it I will grow and transform myself.
Search-In became the catalyst of my young adulthood. With the life-changing experience in Search-In, it ushered new things in my life. I became more mature in handling situations and right decision making. I gained better leadership skills and more self-confidence without a hint of cockiness. I became more active in joining extra-curricular activities in school and became an instrument in spreading humility; in fact, I am one of the school coordinators of Lasallian Youth Commission, an organization catering for the welfare of the children and empowerment of the youth in the Philippines. It strengthened my soul by becoming more honest and optimistic in life. Never did it cross in my mind to give up on life after the retreat. I became more honest, open, and appreciative in my relationship with my family, friends, and classmates. It was like doing anything by keeping my feet on the ground, knowing I am not perfect and acknowledging all the mistakes, defects, and weaknesses that I once denied.
Accepting who you are and desiring to change, I always thank God for the opportunity to change myself at this early stage of my adulthood. All that I have gained can help me achieve my goals and aspirations in life. There is this classic one-liner in Search-In that truly captures the root of changing oneself: “God is the center of my life.”
Change defines a person. It is a journey of introspecting in the depths of spirituality; recognizing weaknesses; removing the fear of rejection; taking off the mask that hides the scars left by the past. If a person sees his true self from within and utilizes them to change then we can see an authentic self, which is a definition of a person.
It was Search-In, a psycho-spiritual weekend retreat offered to third year high school students, that helped me change and define myself as a person. This was no ordinary retreat because there was a time during the retreat it became mystical, mixed with love and suffering that I just cannot explain. I realized my weaknesses and strengths through this process, analyzed them so I can improve on and strengthen myself. This was a significant process in my life because it opened my eyes to a more intensified experience and deeper appreciation of the Christian faith. It served as the point of no return, I have experienced it and I must live it to the fullest. Thus I decided to change for the better knowing it is a process that will take a long time. In the ups and downs of it I will grow and transform myself.
Search-In became the catalyst of my young adulthood. With the life-changing experience in Search-In, it ushered new things in my life. I became more mature in handling situations and right decision making. I gained better leadership skills and more self-confidence without a hint of cockiness. I became more active in joining extra-curricular activities in school and became an instrument in spreading humility; in fact, I am one of the school coordinators of Lasallian Youth Commission, an organization catering for the welfare of the children and empowerment of the youth in the Philippines. It strengthened my soul by becoming more honest and optimistic in life. Never did it cross in my mind to give up on life after the retreat. I became more honest, open, and appreciative in my relationship with my family, friends, and classmates. It was like doing anything by keeping my feet on the ground, knowing I am not perfect and acknowledging all the mistakes, defects, and weaknesses that I once denied.
Accepting who you are and desiring to change, I always thank God for the opportunity to change myself at this early stage of my adulthood. All that I have gained can help me achieve my goals and aspirations in life. There is this classic one-liner in Search-In that truly captures the root of changing oneself: “God is the center of my life.”
Saturday, August 05, 2006
Nagbabalik
Nagbabalik...
I'm back!!! Ang tagal ko ng di nakapagsulat!!
Go Tiburcio! Go! Ang Pakikipagsapalaran ng Kamao
"Kaya pa ba?" tanong ni Lester habang minamasahe si Tiburcio.
Hindi makasagot si Tiburcio. Hindi niya halos naintindihan ang tanong. Pudpod ng pasa at sugat ang mukha niya. Nagdudugo pa ang labi, dahil sa malakas na hook ng kalaban, kaya masakit magsalita.
Bakit ba nagkakaganito?
Bakit ayaw gumana ang mga suntok?
Bakit ayaw pumalag?
Bakit?
Bumabagabag sa isipan ni Tiburcio ang mga tanong na pilit hinahanap ang mga sagot. Mga dahilan ng nakalipas bumabagabag, nagkulang sa insayo; nasobrahan sa bisyo; nawalan na ng pera; nawalan ng pocus. Hindi lang alam ni Tiburcio kung paano mamulat sa katotohanan at makuha ang mga dahilan sa kanyang sitwasyon kahit ang resulta ng nakaraan ay ang kinahaharap niya. Isang malaking balagid ang kinahaharap niya para muling matikman ang tamis ng nakaraan
"Kaya pa ba?!" muling sumigaw sa utak ni Tiburcio ang pagtanong ni Lester habang pinapahiran ng gamot ang mukha ni Tiburcio.
Huminga ng malalim si Tiburcio. Tumingin ng diretso sa kaniyang kalaban. Nakangisi ang kalaban, para bang nangaasar sabay lumakas ang tibok ng puso ni Tiburcio. Hinigpitan ang kamao at inayos ang upo.
"Ano Tiburcio?!"
Bahala na! Hindi mapigilan ang muling paglakas ng pagliyab ng namamatay na apoy sa puso ni Tiburcio. Minsan siya'y naging kampeon ng nakakarami, ng masa, ng bayan. Minsan. Kaya pa ba ibalik ang natamong kasikatan, kayamanan at kabayanihan?
"Ano ba!?" sigaw ni Lester, hawak na ang twalya para tapusin ang laban dahil di pa sumasagot ang bata niya. Ayaw naman ni Lester mapuruhan ng todo si Tiburcio.
Biglang tumayo si Tiburcio. Pinagsusuntok ang ulo at sumigaw. Nagulat si Lester pero napangiti sa nakitang alab ng alaga.
"Kaya pa!" ang sigaw ni Tiburcio.
TIIIIING!
I'm back!!! Ang tagal ko ng di nakapagsulat!!
Go Tiburcio! Go! Ang Pakikipagsapalaran ng Kamao
"Kaya pa ba?" tanong ni Lester habang minamasahe si Tiburcio.
Hindi makasagot si Tiburcio. Hindi niya halos naintindihan ang tanong. Pudpod ng pasa at sugat ang mukha niya. Nagdudugo pa ang labi, dahil sa malakas na hook ng kalaban, kaya masakit magsalita.
Bakit ba nagkakaganito?
Bakit ayaw gumana ang mga suntok?
Bakit ayaw pumalag?
Bakit?
Bumabagabag sa isipan ni Tiburcio ang mga tanong na pilit hinahanap ang mga sagot. Mga dahilan ng nakalipas bumabagabag, nagkulang sa insayo; nasobrahan sa bisyo; nawalan na ng pera; nawalan ng pocus. Hindi lang alam ni Tiburcio kung paano mamulat sa katotohanan at makuha ang mga dahilan sa kanyang sitwasyon kahit ang resulta ng nakaraan ay ang kinahaharap niya. Isang malaking balagid ang kinahaharap niya para muling matikman ang tamis ng nakaraan
"Kaya pa ba?!" muling sumigaw sa utak ni Tiburcio ang pagtanong ni Lester habang pinapahiran ng gamot ang mukha ni Tiburcio.
Huminga ng malalim si Tiburcio. Tumingin ng diretso sa kaniyang kalaban. Nakangisi ang kalaban, para bang nangaasar sabay lumakas ang tibok ng puso ni Tiburcio. Hinigpitan ang kamao at inayos ang upo.
"Ano Tiburcio?!"
Bahala na! Hindi mapigilan ang muling paglakas ng pagliyab ng namamatay na apoy sa puso ni Tiburcio. Minsan siya'y naging kampeon ng nakakarami, ng masa, ng bayan. Minsan. Kaya pa ba ibalik ang natamong kasikatan, kayamanan at kabayanihan?
"Ano ba!?" sigaw ni Lester, hawak na ang twalya para tapusin ang laban dahil di pa sumasagot ang bata niya. Ayaw naman ni Lester mapuruhan ng todo si Tiburcio.
Biglang tumayo si Tiburcio. Pinagsusuntok ang ulo at sumigaw. Nagulat si Lester pero napangiti sa nakitang alab ng alaga.
"Kaya pa!" ang sigaw ni Tiburcio.
TIIIIING!
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