Moonstuhs and Ninjuhs

I believe in moonstuhs and ninjuhs.

fake British accent.


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pray. sleep. eat. pause...

Given the circumstance we are in, it's difficult to be open to all what i want to say, experience, and and and...

Gusto mo lang isigaw at sana'y di mawalan ng boses.

Sa daming dahilan

Sa daming dahilan kung bakit ganito ang mga nangyayari...

Gawan na lang natin ng paraan.

Siguro paliko-liko ang mga salita pero isa lang naman ang pinupuntahan. Diretsong hindi. Pero papunta dun. - ang daming dahilan.

Gawan ko na lang ng paraan. Lulundag kung saan ang tawag. Lulundag kung ano ang gusto. Lulundag kung saan masaya. Lulundag kung saan tama.

Ikaw naman talaga at wala ng iba.

Literally

Jules and Jim.

Nagkakapaan sa dilim.

lunchbox

Pilit tinatago.
Kakayanin maging bago.

Kanina.

Ako'y nagmonologue sa harap ng mga kaibigan ko. Oo, ang sinabi kong rant ay isang panama sa mga taong nagtaya at patuloy na nagtataya. Dibdibin/sakyan ang kapalaran.

City lights

Uncertain yet I'll proceed to that greater calling.

It's not selfish to look for your own desire.

Was magassume.

The fact that I'm typing this entry, I have assumed?

Summer.

SUMMER!

Boom.

Recovering believer of Good things possible

BOOKS BOOKS BOOKS

Buddies

Nonoy and Mar.
Bonnie and Clyde.
Batman and Robin.

It's good to have a companion by your side. She ain't no sidekick but she's a keeper.

God bless her soul.

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What a move. Piso move doesn't work.

Senti hindi emo HAHA

Unfinished lives and their stories

After seeing films from Marie class, i felt a tinge of frustration. I was admiring works of my friends and at the same time, i'm screaming GUSTO KO GUMAWA NG PELIKULA!

January

I shot a short film. I was halfway editing the short. Something came up. I promised something and I was disheartened that the enthusiasm was gone. :(

Study harder! Party After!

1) Commercial/film director

What's happening (real-time)

Ate Weng is heating up the stove.

*music: Somebody owns you now...*

Me: I try to live somehow. (ugh)

Summer: Makes me think of all the summers I experienced. Countdown lang pala ang lahat!

Guess. I guess we are not here to begin with.

His mind is out of there. Making friends with the cosmos.

Her mind is already grounded.

Eggs

Signals.

- I remember when your voice hints forty winks.

Paano mag-mahal ng tama?

Paano mag-mahal ng tama?

1) wag kalimutan na ikaw ay ikaw. hindi totoo ang i changed because of you.
2) kailangan magtaya.
3) kailangan magparaya.
4) kailangan magtiwala.
5) wag kalimutan ang nakaraan. alalahanin ito.
6) honesty is the best policy.
7) communication.
8) lundagin mo.

s

Ang batang ito.

Kulang.

California

california is her name.

qwerty

Iniisip ko na tayo na tayo'y magkatabi.

Mananatili

Mananatili ba; hahayaan matunaw tulad ng yelo?

Layuan mo ako munting alaala.

HAHAHA!

Susmaryosep, ‘yung dila ay sumabit.

half-finished

From: Chester

Half-finished letters.

Too many mornings spent on you.

Sana wag na tayo magkalayo. Ang bata pa natin at alam ko na makakakita pa tayo ng iba pero ang sakit lang sa batang ito na di tayo makakapagusap - sakim na kung sakim gusto kitang makilala. Iiwas sa tingin sa bawat iglap na tayo'y magkasalubong; kung magkataon na tayo'y ma-stuck sa isang elevator, siguro di ko papalampasin na ipakita sa iyo ang takot at kaba na kasama ko ang isang tulad mo, isang multo.

Malapit na ang Valentine's...magisa na lang ako dudungaw sa isang cliff view overlooking marikina.

and the fires won't consume you

WHOA!

summer classes

summer classes

cs paper.

wag na...wag na.

if its a scene galing high school

may isang hihirit. tapos olats. wag na...

ito lang.

ito lang.

it sucks

it really really sucks. :|

slowpokes don't live too long.

i'm a slowpoke.

...it sure helps

Tumiklop

a letter to

flying olives and capers go to

bad timing :|

italian sentence

aakyat ako sa bundok. lalapitan ang isang malaking puno. may ibubulong ako sa butas nya. at tatakpan ko ng putik. putik.

isang kwento sa isang malupit na pelikula.

habang naglalakad kanina pauwi, sabi ko gagawin kong cool at puno ng humor itong blog na ito.

tag-lish ang language and proper grammar :P

Ngunit di talaga maiwasan na eto, naging tapunan ng one-liners at stat messages na medyo weird sa aking hinahawakang persona.

drama ang loob nito.

ayoko na balikan yng dating entries...kahit masasaya ang mga ito.

sa tunay na buhay na lang ako ngingiti :)

in the mood:
you know, you call me by this name yet...i don't know. I'm not well composed.

bihag tayo ng alaala mo. - sinosikat?

Iniwan

Iniwan na natin ang 2009.

Oh yeah!

2010, baby...2010.

and

Ano ba laman ng blog na ito?

friends, events, love, relationships, dramas....

Ok lang!

muntikan na ako maluha.

as in muntikan na.

ang sarap maging tao.

letters and greetings

There are a handful of people that i want to thank and be grateful this year.

I can't greet them all by texting or wall posting...

it doesn't mean that he or she is less...it's just i want my greetings to them personal and intimate, casual and merry...nothing immediate...dahan dahan-tulad ng dati...

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

To family...
To barkada...
To old friends...
To ACLC...
To Block R...
To LFC...
To Ateneo...
To Search-In...
To new faces...
To Love...
To lost love...
To cinema and pelikula...
To time...
To pain...
To smiles...
To drunk moments...
and pass out experiences...
To lost tooth...
To TnT's...
To good views...
To good byes and see you later...
To hello's...
To be with you...
To heartaches...
To Joy...
To everything in between stars and waves...
To where the day kisses the night...
To break-ups and dramas...
To second chances...
To lost friends...
To tickets we keep...

God bless and live on.

stop it.

strangers.

A letter

A letter to Juana.

This is where I live.

This is what I want you to know.

Unforgivable nights and wretched lines were spared.

How to start this letter?

A letter to Who.

...yellow pad papers, spilled inks. dots...unreported books.

Kahit ano pa ang ibato

Oo ganito.

Lesbian lovers/detectives or just platonic friends...

meddling kids of Scooby Doo...

gritty...mahiwaga at walang ...

blunders

QC Carnivals.

Sa susunod

Nanaginip ang mga bulag.

stuck in reverse.

minsan di na talaga patok mga linya ko

babae.

hahaha!

hahahaha!

Para sa aking susunod na pelikula...

Para sa mga naiwan at di pa nakakabalik...

Detectives...

Break-ups...

Secrets...

dogs...

missing cats...

less

Kung kaya pumatay ang kaniyang mga mata, ako na ang unang biktima.

Naiwan sa Kusina at iba pa'ng storya

During silence...

i was distracted. i just couldn't contain the feeling inside. the thought lingered throughout the week. i wrote it down. tired of it being a mental note, i took my blue exam book. and...

Excerpts

4th day, 3pm. Silence.

The sisters are praying.

Why should those city lights shine? Siguro function lang talaga nila yun.

~~~~~~

Si Bea at ang mga bulalakaw.

Ilan pa'ng bulalakaw ang kailangan ni Bea para makamit ang kanyang inaasam?

~~~~~~

Recess.

Sawa na ako sa caf food. Siomai...ayoko. KFC...tama lang. Wendy's...elite.

Lunch.

Magandang eksena:

Lunch. Mag-pinsan. Babae at Lalake. Buntis. Ama. Mahal ang isa't isa.

*Tag-ulan sa Tag-init

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During Silence...

Holding you again can only do me good.

Sabihin natin...

Wala na talagang pupuntahan ito...

and

kunwari ikaw na lang talaga ang pag-asa ko...

pag-asa ng mundo...

pag-asa ng mundo ko...

Paano ka pa bibitaw kung nakasalalay ang lahat sa iyo.

Sumasabay sa punit-punit na radyo.

This blog is dying. no...

will stop making their stories.

oh baby can't we just find the days when you...oh yes you....

we'll spend these times with...i don't know...watch a movie...

ewan...

getting some resolutions under these new solutions

my blog is living. this blog is breathing under the machine of faith, love, and truth.

Too tired to think...
Just happy to be silent...


Tapang. Lakas. Passion.

Parang pangalan ng mga political parties...

"Doesn't help to know that you're just time away
Long ago I reached for you, and there you stood..."

Trust me...and everything will be alright.

i'llhua;dhmfnewd3vefwfrhflalafododwoihuwy;rgive youanckadlr cradn,adod[ziDJBQDness.

ang puso ko'y tigang

magmamahal.

Two nights ago

Two nights ago was devastating.

Na-shake off ko na. haha! I'm proud and will continue making films!

lord...we need you. why?

Amoy chico...

Maghihintay muna ako gumabi bago maging malungkot ang bawat tibok ng puso.

We're making an ark...No! A bridge over a river! No! A home-made rocket ship! Impossible.

Hiccups...

Mahal.

wala na siyang minamahal. sa loob ng puso nya ay mga alaala na sumugat sa bawat sulok ng puso. bawat tibok mahapdi.

pelikulang basta-basta

bukas.

ilang beses

tatlo?

This feeling is just a feeling. All that I'm saying is just true but at the same time nothing is invested.

dalawa?

Kanino ba nahulog ang tingin? Oo, tingin lang. Pero hindi naman ganito dapat. Parang may tumitigil sa akin. Di tama ang katotohanan (mali).

Isa?

Sa huling mga araw ni Mindy, ayaw niya umalis ng bahay. Wala siyang gustong gawin kundi ikutin ang bahay at ang lupain. Sa kanyang paglibot, lahat ng bagay ay parang bago sa kanya. Siya'y nagiisa lamang sa bahay ngunit may nararamdaman siyang mga nangugulo.

Isang araw, meron siyang nakitang malaking pusa. Hinabol niya palabas ng bahay ang malaking pusa.

Isang araw, may kumatok...

Ikaw

My room doesn't have a window. I mean...Yes it has a window but not the over viewing wheat fields.

I have a feeling that i have no chance to break free from a decision that makes me grounded.

uhm..

Kung galit ang mundo sa iyo

Akala mo lang yun :)

Naglologos tayo!

Sali na!

This person is not into you. Pwede siya ang no. 1 fan mo pero di pa rin. Pwede sya tumawa sa jokes mo or makinig sa mga pangarap mo sa buhay, pero di pa rin. Mahilig sya sa gusto mo pero di pa rin.

smiles are just smiles.
laughs are just laughs.

Siguro sa makalawa...

Mag-aral tayo!

WUHOOOO!!!!! GUSTO KO MAG-ARAL!

Break muna.

Aso't Pusa

this cat possesses some magical/supernatural powers. Whatever you say to him, it will come true.

Iwas

Kung kelan wala na ito, dun mo hinahanap-hanap.

She said:

"Pagkatapos mo aminin yun, siguro di na muna ako sasabay sa iyo. Gusto ko lang maramdaman mo yung sinabi mo. Alam kong mahirap aminin yung mga ganung bagay lalo na pag matagal mo na tinatago. Kahit noon, may kutob na'ko...pero ang basehan naman ay ang pagiging malapit mo sa 'kin. Hindi ko alam ngayon...ewan...basta iwas muna ako. "

After 2 days, she studied his theo131 readings...

He went home alone.

After 4 days, he offered her a ride home.

The Jinx Theory

Keep it to myself.

Let it burn, let it push me towards something better and greater.

Sa bawat higpit

Mr. Anniversary

5 hour breaks. Haha appreciating my 2nd life in ADMU. :)

nah!

The first time I felt "snow" was when I was a big headed and white-as-a-pig boy during a summer in my lolo and lola's house. I pushed a chair towards the refrigerator so I could reach the freezer compartment. I opened the compartment and saw the thick snow surrounding the walls of the compartment. I scraped a handful of it from the walls, piercing coldness inside my nails. It was different from the imperfect frozen water, those hard to get ice cubes trays, because it was soft and crunchy; it was snow!

yeah

he perks of a sex video scandal for Hayden Kho
-Sen. Bong Revilla will mention your name on his privilege speech. Or probably he'll bash your head like what he said to Alec Baldwin.
-Time 100's Influential People candidate next year. Kung yng nagkalat ng rick astley viral video nalagay, baka ikaw pwede.
-Bad publicity is still publicity. Exposure. Para sumikat ka naman kahit wala sa tono sa pagkanta at parang macho dancer ka sumayaw.
-Oprah will invite you to her show, then she'll praise you for your stupidity and eat you alive because she's Oprah.
-estimate Sunday showbiz talk show life: hanggang magsawa ang mga tao.
-TV patrol will censor your video during their showbiz segment...joke lang, mas gusto nila may nipple slip dahil opaque yng pixelized censor nila or naka zoom-out or zoom-in sa video yng camera.
-Karma.
-You'll learn from your mistakes. Like uhm...not recording your sexy time?

At the end of the Day, are these the things that really matter?
I doubt.

Abutan sana tayo ng ulan.

Gusto ko sana.

Pero mababasa ang bago mong t-shirt na binili mo sa Ali Mall.

Sakto may payong akong dala. Maliit nga lang.

Gusto ko sana.

Sa bawat hinga.

Nanaginip ako kagabi.

Nagholding hands silang dalawa.

Ako'y na sa malayo. Masaya. Sulyap sa aking nakaraan. Nalungkot.

Maynagtanong sa akin kung ok lang ako.

Sabi ko oo. Tumungo at tinakpan aking mga mata, di napigilan ang aking pagluha.

ok lang.

ok lang talaga.

as in ok lang talaga. walang sarcastic tone or kung ano mang figure of speech ang pwedeng ibato.

ok lang.

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thank God for the sunny mornings, the rainy afternoons, and the cloudy evenings.

hell shoot.

tonight will be hell.

shooting will take place at Bonifacio Global City.

Please Lord! I hope everything will be fine for the crew and the actors.

itulog na lang natin diba?

the weather is bad.

her nose itches when it will rain.

she senses rainfall.

As in wala.

Goals this year
1. 2.75 and beyond
2. 2 and beyond
3. FOCUS: Acads
4. Sacrifice: orgs.
5. Be a nice and perfect. (hahahaha)

Ayoko na magkwento.

gagawa ako ng pelikula na ang title ay

A week with Sunny.

and this thought of kableesh will end.

bahala na hahahaha!

Ano ba ang hinahanap ko?

It starts with myself.
Then other people (family, friends, lovers; yes all the labels)
Then you give value to them. More for her. Less for her. More for him. Less for him.

Sometimes ayaw talaga. Kahit anong pilit ayaw talaga. Di handa or wala lang. Wag muna.

Ayaw ibigay. Di mo matanggap.

Ok story.

Ok uhm...hmmm.

everything is fine.

I'm addressing this entry to whom it may concern.

So eto...

Mas malala pa sa violation report ko nung grade school ang mga nangyari sa mga nakalipas na dalawang linggo. Two weeks of not knowing your status in life. Two weeks of desolation. Two weeks of dying of regrets and guilts.

Yes, with the help of my closest friends...I'm recovering from an academic setback that will change my life in Ateneo forever.

I hate it. I hate this!!

Sorry ranting na ito.

A friend of mine: Kailangan mahalin ang course.

Tama.

Ok.

First. I'll miss my blockmates. My barkada in comtech. My friends. One of the main reasons why I want to go to school every single day. Na iimagine ko na di ako magpupuyat kasama mga blockmates ko. Di nako magsusuot ng formal attire during marketing presentations (even though i choke every presentation in front of my block). Di nako makakasomba kasama si jackie. Di nako matututo magedit ng premiere o magphotoshop. Di nako makakapili ng track. Di nako magkakaroon ng LS class. and nasabi ko na di nako comtech? :(

Second. THE COURSE! I like my course. Yun lang at walang ng iba.

Third. Ugh...

nakakalungkot...

yet di pa tapos ang lahat. di pa katapusan ng mundo. whew...

My only post till everything is fine.

those with wounded knees are the ones
who reach the top
and get to stay there.

Wala ng tama

Shit.

Kung ano man ang itapon sa atin.

First.
Summer is gone. Just like a comet. There it is.


2nd.
Hey. Tatlong oras na akong nagpapacute sa iyo, di mo pa rin napapansin ang bagong t-shirt ko. Pati ang bagong gupit ni Jojo ng Kristine's.

3rd
Stronger, better, and never.

4th
Ateneo. Ateneo. Ateneo. Ateneo.

Gabi-gabi na lang hahahahaha!

The Letter I Would Love To Read To You In Person

Ang liham na gusto ko sana'ng ihayag sa iyo.

Liham para sa isang kaibigan na nawawala. Hindi pa siya nahahanap hanggang ngayon.


You will always be the waiting woman.

SUMMER IS COMING

Gusto ko ibalik ang nakaraan kung saan magbababad lang tayo sa araw para magbasketball.

Sana nakatira ako sa antipolo para paglabas ko ng bahay tuwing gabi, pwede kong ituro ang orion's belt sa aking kasamang dilag hawak ang kanyang kamay.

This summer ko lang siya makikilala.

Basta kasama kita at basta suot mo yung balut (guy: baluuuuuuttt!!!) costume na sinuot mo nung birthday ko!

Let's spot the green tinge over the horizon. Taya ka kung hindi mo nakita!

Pendong Peace! Eh...balik na natin yun.

You're looking so pretty.

I have a friend who did random things like...

Amoy bengay... lumingon ako. Si ate weng lang pala.

time and space

Please.

somewhere, somehow

jillian and the hungernauts

Jillian has died three minutes ago. She has to frame a memory before crossing over to the after life. She struggles to reconstruct a certain event which is significant yet she doesn't know why. Situations, events, details, information keep changing until a final version is produced.

Slow-mo time freezing moment

Isang mabilis na halik sa pisngi.

Cut to:

You. Walking towards him. Pausing for a moment. Smiles. Says...

Hay...

Kilig

Eh...?

Mamaya pa ako gagalaw.

TIGAS

I promise to be stoic, reserve, and strong.

So far away...

So far away...

LIGAYA

ERASERHEADS LIVE! THE FINAL SET

With Bi, Goots, Kiwee and Aba
Thank you Goots for the free golden tickets!


Liagaya talaga! As In!

Platonic

All i want is to be platonic.

Manibela

Siguro wala na talaga.

alam mo nakakalungkot talaga. Kung ano ang meron dati ngayon nawala. Tinabi sa isang sulok ng isipan. Nakalimutan. Nilumot. Hinahanap ko pa rin ang iyong pagkakaibigan. Pero hanggang tingin at ngiti na lang ba? Ewan. ewan. Di naman lahat makukuha. hmmm?

Ilang taon na ang nakalipas, sana ayoko pa matandaan ang nakalipas. Halina't sumama sa alapaap.

Aquathlon

Last January 24 2008, I blogged about joining the Aquathlon. But due to insufficient funds and conflict with the schedule, I wasn't able to walk the talk.

Pero kanina lang, nakajoin na ako! I would like to thank Ciara for giving me the reg form for Aquathlon.

I courted Kid to be my relay partner, he would be running 5km of Atenean earth. We had great fun. Kid was checking out swimmers while I was imagining a possible scenario of my awful finish.

I wasn't prepared for it. I was the last one to finish the swimming part of the relay. Kid and Ciara, theo classmate, were screaming, "Go Joseph!". Hearing their support (obviously Kid was encouraging me to swim faster to avoid humilitaion), I was motivated to finish strong on my last two laps but after a moment of intense all heart swimming (it only lasted for 2 seconds), I paused, walked a bit, then swam like a dog into the corner, finally ending the swimming leg.

Kid finished the running leg earlier. Technically, our team didn't end up last! hahaha! So yeah boy!

I would recommend for my blockmates and everyone to join Aquathlon next year! Super fun!

Thank you Kid for being my partner! And to all the people that I courted to be my relay partner, I salute all of you for tolerating my ambitions, dreams, and aspirations. haha!

The experience wasn't embarassing. This was a moment that I could say I walked the talk. haha!

and one more chance is always on cinema one.

di na tumatabla ang mga kantang ilang ulit pinapakinggan. Sana parang mga banda at singer na kumakanta sa likod ng love songs ang pag-ibig. Bigay sa pagkanta. Walang pake basta maihayag ang mensaheng pag-ibig.

Getting closer...

She wants love.
She wants him.
He can't.
Why?
He's not supposed to.
She'll wait until her time expires.
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3logy

Sawa na sa drama.

Halina't tumakas na tayo :)